Broken Hearted Girl October 31, 2009
You’re everything I thought you never were
And nothing like I thought you could’ve been
But still you live inside of me
So tell me how is that?
You’re the only one I wish I could forget
The only one I’d love to not forgive
And though you break my heart, you’re the only one
And though there are times when I hate you
Cause I can’t erase
The times that you hurt me
And put tears on my face
And even now while I hate you
It pains me to say
I know I’ll be there at the end of the day
I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No…No
No broken-hearted girl
I’m no broken-hearted girl
Something that I feel I need to say
But up to now I’ve always been afraid
That you would never come around
And still I want to put this out
You say you’ve got the most respect for me
But sometimes I feel you’re not deserving me
And still you’re in my heart
But you’re the only one and yes
There are times when I hate you
But I don’t complain
Cause I’ve been afraid that you would’ve walk away
Oh but now I don’t hate you
I’m happy to say
That I will be there at the end of the day
I don’t wanna be without you babe
I don’t want a broken heart
Don’t wanna take a breath with out you babe
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way no no
I don’t want a broken heart
And I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl…No…No
No broken-hearted girl
Now I’m at a place I thought I’d never be…Oooo
I’m living in a world that’s all about you and me…yeah
Ain’t gotta be afraid my broken heart is free
To spread my wings and fly away
Away With you
yeah yeah yeah, ohh ohh ohh
I don’t wanna be without my baby
I don’t wanna a broken heart
Don’t want to take a breath with out my baby
I don’t wanna play that part
I know that I love you
But let me just say
I don’t want to love you in no kind of way..No..No
I don’t want a broken heart
I don’t wanna play the broken-hearted girl..No..No..
No broken-hearted girl
Broken-hearted girl No…no…
No broken-hearted girl
No broken-hearted girl
Reality October 23, 2009
Day by day, I am just floating my way through living.. too many things too many stuff.. I wish I can leave everything behind and move on to another place where everything is simple. But reality is tough, and I will make myself stronger to deal with them, instead of running from reality.
I hate year end.
Your disappearance is my bane…
Upcoming… October 19, 2009
New Blogshop domain and new shop name! Will be revamping my blogshop completely… Doing the preparations one bit at a time…
*Did I make a mistake?*
ARGH! October 3, 2009
Everything is just messy!! I can’t find the right paper to review on for my BS407 written assignment which goes by the topic ” Review a research area which utilises a model organism to discover a target one drug “. And sad to say is that I have been searching for the paper for a week now, and still nothing!! and also those words in the topic that I bold, are those that I don’t really understand. 
Working at home is also not a peaceful haven as every few hours there would be an uproar of unhappiness. Haix.. I haven’t mugged properly for my other modules, though reading the lecture notes and writing small notes on them as I read is what some might call as having done my “revision”. Oh well, I just hope that I can find the paper that I need asap and start reviewing it along with many other references.
$.$ September 2, 2009
Pay from tuition is here!! No fleas to prepare, no major phone bills to pay, no major need to update wardrobe!!!
Finally can save at least half of the pay!! 
To keep $50 for next phone bill and another $50 for other things that I want to reward myself with for working hard in school. Already bought great shampoo, white shorts, sandals and hair accessories; my acne is disappearing soon, with only the redness to subside and the small internal bumps to be battled by my immune system, Doxycaps & C-mycin gel. So less money needed to spend on so many facial foams just to see which one can help me.
But somehow apart of me just wants to continue to shop for dresses and loose fitting tops; want to move away from the spaghetti tops I have. Oh Oh!! I think I would rather trade some money for time. I so want to go cycling again… =( I miss the sun and the sea breeze. I love my tan which still has not faded…
Amanda is happy… Weird that I am not feeling stressed at the moment.. Many things piling up but still.. HAPPY!!
FUN!!! August 28, 2009
I love FRIDAYS!! I went for my first class for my elective and it was fun… Today I did clay modelling, 2 in fact!! One when I was blindfolded and another without!! Same thing but the difference is so so great.. Lol.. Pictures on FB.. Do see..
IS MUGGING!!! August 12, 2009
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Arghh!! School just started for me at 3.30pm 11th August and I am already mugging!!! ARGHHH!!!! Stupid stupid BS409 stupid stupid reading and stupid stupid brain for not understanding a single crap of it.. This is why I HATE STRUCTURAL BIOLOGY!!!
!@(!@^%*&$*&
I Could be outside now @ Justine’s hall celebrating her B’day if not for my gastric then realising I need to read through 43 slides + 6 pages of research + 70++ slides of supplementary reading before lesson starts tomorrow @ 11.30 am…
!@#@#%$%!$
I wish everything was simpler.. Now am in denial of reading.. Gastric still causing hell..
忘情水 July 25, 2009
I thought I was alright.. But no.. I am still hurting very very badly.. I wish I could just get involved in some accident that could let me just get ammesia and forget about everything that happened..
The pain is there, forever fresh and forever there. I tried almost everything I could to forget, but I still ended up back to square one. Is there any drug out there that can let me forget?
I am still lost, still struggling, still trying… But now, I don’t see anything; nothing at all… I guess what I did for the past few weeks was just to numb and set it aside and just pretend that nothing had happened. But now I am embracing the reality of it and I feel the pain every single second.
I have to do it, I have to or we will both be unhappy…
I am okay July 4, 2009
Dear Friends and those concerned,
I am okay… Honest… This post here is just to settle your worries and concerns…
Thanks for all your concerns.. I am thankful to have you as my friends..
~Hugs~
Amanda
P.S : Meanwhile enjoy these videos (in memory of the late Michael Jackson)
Can someone own up this blog? May 5, 2009
Hi friends out there, would you be so kind to tell me the blog owner of this URL??
http://lourstoryl.blogspot.com/
Cause apparently I seem to be receiving quite a number of blog hits originating from this site… Am just curious to know though.. if it’s no one… it is okay 
